來了新加坡這兩年，回去吉隆坡的次數十根手指頭都不夠數，其主要的原因都是朋友的婚禮。每一趟的旅程，花車費，買機票從來都是自己淘腰包，當然住宿更不用說。當然也有朋友也盡地主之誼，租下旅館。每一次這樣的回去，都會在吉隆坡呆個至少兩天三夜。經常性的去吉隆坡，有一些在新加坡的朋友就以開玩笑的口吻問我，這樣的回去值得嗎？如果今天換是你在砂勞越美里擺喜酒，是否這一些朋友也會像你一樣自己買機票，租旅館來你的婚禮？
我感到很茫然。我真的不知道多少個人真的會為我這樣的去付出。這樣的問題問多了，我就告訴身邊的朋友，參加婚禮只不過是給自己一個理由回去度假。
我一直都在問，這些年建立的友誼，經過歲月的洗禮，有多少又會真正是身邊的好朋友？多少朋友又在成家立業後；那個友誼因家庭的存在而退色？這種朋友婚後孤單候群症對身邊單身的朋友特別有感觸。當身邊朋友一個一個開始有了自己的天地後，或許＂你＂已經沒有存在的意義。或許別人的歡樂聲已經不會在和你共享。
或許每一次的回去都是為了看最後的友誼。享受那種即將逝去的關係。
I has been going back to Kuala Lumpur for my friends' wedding more than 10 times since I moved over to Singapore. Most of the times I have paid for my own flight ticket, bus ticket as well as my accommodation. Normally I will stay over there for about 2 days 3 nights. Because I travel quite frequents, some of my friends will ask me it is worth to travel like this. Let said this turn is your wedding in Miri, Sarawak, will your friend do the same things to you as well? They will buy their own flight ticket and accommodation just for your wedding?
Honestly I don't know who will do such things to me? Who will did the same things I did for them before. When such a question keep threw to me, I told my friend, wedding is just a reason for me to go back to Kuala Lumpur for holidays.
I did question myself for several years, the friendship I built, how many will retain after many years. Who will stay with me after many years? How many friendship will remain even though the status is different? When one of your friend found his or her the other half, the friendship bond between us will getting weak. Our "existing" may not seem important to them anymore. They happiness may not agains share with us.
May be every time when I go back to Kuala Lumpur, I am trying to enjoy the last great moment of our friendship before it end without my knowledge.
